Today marks the one year anniversary of Priscilla's death and I can't help but feel sad (obviously). The problem with feeling sad is that I can't hide it all that well and I'm at work. The last thing I want to do is make the others sad. I hate this!! I hate that she's gone. I hate that we have to lose people we love. I hate the feeling of emptyness. I hate walking into room 11 and remembering that night...knowing that Shirley is in there and even though we're not verbalizing it, we know how each other is feeling tonight. I hate not being able to speak with Priscilla....and him for that matter. Death overall sucks!!
Oh, and I have to go to another funeral later today! So my tears have to placed on hold until then. So be it.
I miss you dearly Priscilla.....and yes, you too Jamal!
Wednesday, November 14, 2007
Wednesday, November 7, 2007
So I'm out of shape...
I recently went on a hike with two of my coworkers/friends. It was part of "meet-up" group where people with similar interests get together and do stuff. Anyhow, as in the past, we let everyone walk ahead of us because we like to talk, look around, and of course we know for a fact that we are slower than the rest..= )
This hike was definately harder than the other hikes we've done. Most of it was all uphill and the worst hill was called the "devil's something", (I don't recall the entire name) and the name was definitely fitting. It felt like hell going up that hill. I got a headache and Hannah didn't feel super great going up either. Obviously everyone else reached the top before us. When I do reach the top...yes, I was the last one...I feel fine, tired, and extremely thankful.The leader then proceeds to ask me if my fingers are "swollen and pudgy" I tell him no that I am fine but he didn't believe me, he had to look at my hands. Someone asked why he asked that, his response was this: "if your fingers are swollen it means that your blood pressure is high and that you are at the end of your rope." Hmmmm I thought my fingers got swollen because my arms were hanging by my side the entire time therefore following the rules of gravity AND because of the elevation.
The rest of the hike was difficult but nowhere near as difficult as that particular hill. Before we got to our next hill the leader stopped and and waited for everyone to catch up. Hannah, Yezenia, and I were last...again. As we approached the group we were in mid-conversation and laughing. But apparently maybe we didn't look well because the leader asked if we were ok. He asked more than once and each time we answered that we were good. Then he asked, "Do you feel like throwing rocks at me yet" Our response:No His response: "because you guys are crying" Crying??? WTF?? We were just laughing! Then some smart ass yells out-"we have a Dr in the house". I know I'm out of shape but please a DR??? Ughhhhhh...freakin eh'!
All in all, the hike was a good work-out but not a friendly one. I guess we should find a hiking group that is more our pace-like maybe a beginners group. And if they take a picture at the end, our smile will be a genuine smile this time.
= )
There, I blogged!!
Oh yeah, by the way, we're nurses!!!!!!!!
This hike was definately harder than the other hikes we've done. Most of it was all uphill and the worst hill was called the "devil's something", (I don't recall the entire name) and the name was definitely fitting. It felt like hell going up that hill. I got a headache and Hannah didn't feel super great going up either. Obviously everyone else reached the top before us. When I do reach the top...yes, I was the last one...I feel fine, tired, and extremely thankful.The leader then proceeds to ask me if my fingers are "swollen and pudgy" I tell him no that I am fine but he didn't believe me, he had to look at my hands. Someone asked why he asked that, his response was this: "if your fingers are swollen it means that your blood pressure is high and that you are at the end of your rope." Hmmmm I thought my fingers got swollen because my arms were hanging by my side the entire time therefore following the rules of gravity AND because of the elevation.
The rest of the hike was difficult but nowhere near as difficult as that particular hill. Before we got to our next hill the leader stopped and and waited for everyone to catch up. Hannah, Yezenia, and I were last...again. As we approached the group we were in mid-conversation and laughing. But apparently maybe we didn't look well because the leader asked if we were ok. He asked more than once and each time we answered that we were good. Then he asked, "Do you feel like throwing rocks at me yet" Our response:No His response: "because you guys are crying" Crying??? WTF?? We were just laughing! Then some smart ass yells out-"we have a Dr in the house". I know I'm out of shape but please a DR??? Ughhhhhh...freakin eh'!
All in all, the hike was a good work-out but not a friendly one. I guess we should find a hiking group that is more our pace-like maybe a beginners group. And if they take a picture at the end, our smile will be a genuine smile this time.
= )
There, I blogged!!
Oh yeah, by the way, we're nurses!!!!!!!!
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